Good news though, the past two days have been snow days so I've literally laid in bed and slept. This was a blessing from God. Without these snow days I would have missed class and I don't want any absences, yet.
I'm just hoping the snow clears up for Friday because I'm ready to get home. I miss my bed, I miss my family, I miss the comfort of being at home when you're sick. I just need to make it through tomorrow.
I'm changing the subject completely because I need to express my feelings somehow and I hate boring my friends with it. When Jeremy died I was devastated, totally torn apart. At his viewing I stood at his casket with my brother Will, and I cried- really cried. But, after that, I didn't think about it. I shoved all my feelings aside and buried them deep within me. Being at school though has forced me to think about him, and how I feel. I don't know why but school does that to me.
I have a lot of regrets. I may have said this in an earlier post, but I regret a lot of things. I never, ever told Jeremy how much I loved him. I never told him I was proud of him. I never told him that he was an inspiration to me. I regret not spending more time with him, how silly of me to think I had all the time in the world. I regret not knowing about him. I regret not being a good sister. This has been the hardest part of all. I haven't said that to anyone. I wasn't a good sister, and I regret that the most.
Sorry for the depressing post, I'll do a happier one later.
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